Thursday, March 17, 2011
I'm treading water in the ocean.
The waves crash on my head.
I've never been so alive,
never so close to dead.
Fish are nipping at my toes.
The sharks are close behind.
I'm looking for my dolphin,
but she’s hard to find.
I've never been a quitter.
I've never been behind.
I always go for what I want and get it,
but this time, never mind.
I'm looking for a life boat.
I'm drowning in this glow.
If it isn't coming,
can someone let me know?
I've given this my all.
I'm falling into blue.
The water makes me delirious.
Is that even you?
Am I crossing the horizon,
or is this just a dream?
Out here everything is different.
Nothing is what it seems.
Illusions of my dreams,
pour into my mind.
Delusions of grandeur,
are telling me I'm fine.
So I let go just once.
I'll release it this one time.
I sink slowly,
it feels like the ocean is mine.
There is peace inside my jaded soul,
as I sink deep below.
I'm finding my happiness,
in this world I do not know.
Bubbles float from my mouth.
I see children in a field.
Still no dolphin, no life boat,
now it's feeling real.
But how deep am I?
The blue turns to black.
I know if I give up this time,
i'll never get it back.
So I kick and kick as hard as I can,
I know I cannot stop.
I’m so close to the bottom,
so close to the top.
I'm getting weaker by the moment.
I just need to breathe.
Will I breathe the fresh air,
or will I breathe the sea?